Farewell

1st December, the day which I long awaited for.
A night to get together with friends to celebrate one's birthday.
A get together which we haven't done for awhile

Little did I know, i was awoken up by the sound of my phone.
I thought it was just my alarm clock and am ready to snooze it until I realised it was a call from mum.

When I first answered the call, I knew that instant it was gonna be a lecture call because i was up late.
It was about 11 am that time.

Mum asked me to wake up ( SEE I KNEW IT WAS A LECTURE CALL ) immediately.
Until suddenly she said those four words.

Those four words that break my heart into pieces and which I could not accept until this very day.

"Nenek no more already"

as in, my grandmother, after battling with her life for 2 weeks plus in ICU has gone to the Lord.

I was in shock.
I did not cry.
I was feeling super numb.

I had no emotions at all. Everything seems like a bad dream. :(
I went to the hospital and went over to my grandma's bed.
I saw a white cloth covering a body. Like the ones we always see on tv.
And I cried because. I can't believe she's gone just like that.

She was okay for the last two months and suddenly God took her away from us.
It was so sudden. Really.

I followed my relatives. I followed her when they wheeled her away to the mortuary. Afraid that I might forgot how she looks like in the future. Not missing a chance to be near to her although I know she will never open her eyes anymore. Hoping that she'll suddenly start breathing again and the doctors will call it a miracle that she came back to life. ( too much drama that's why )

I went into the mortuary room and watched the whole process when they bathed her. She looked like she was only sleeping! Keep focusing on her tummy to see any signs of breathing. T_T

I saw they put her in the coffin. Lying in there.
I saw my uncle and his family who came all the way from Betong by car, running towards the coffin and cried.

I saw how my mum looks so sad and weak.
I saw how my cool uncle suddenly starts crying.

Everything happened too fast in just one night.
And we sent her off in an ambulance car back to her hometown, Dalat.

Grandma, you'll forever be miss by us. :(
I can't believe you're not here anymore.
I can't believe you won't be making any more clothes for me!

At least, you are not in pain anymore. Maybe God loves you more and wants to end your suffering.
May you rest in peace, grandma. :')
You will always be in our prayer.